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Your Worry Factor is 74%

The amount you worry is definitely borderline unhealthy. Even when things are going well, you find yourself fixating on the negatives. Try to remember the times you've been able to let your worries go. If you can do that again, you'll be much happier!

Do You Worry Too Much?

You Communicate Like a Woman

You empathize, talk things out, and express your emotions freely. You're a good listener, and you're non-judgmental with your advice. Communication is how you connect with people. You're always up for a long talk, no matter how difficult the subject matter is.

Do You Communicate Like a Man or a Woman?

Your Psyche is Blue

You are deeply emotional and very connected to everything (and everyone) around you. By simply understanding other people, you are able to help them heal and let go. While you are a very deep and thoughtful person, you do have a very silly, superficial side. When you are too blue: the weight of the world's problems hangs over you When you don't have enough blue: you lack perspective and understanding

What Color Is Your Psyche?

Your Life is Better Than 29% of All People

Your life can be a bummer at times, but you're on the right track. You may need new friends, a new place to live in, or a new job... But most of all, you need a new outlook. You are your own worst enemy. Start being thankful for what you have - and start working for what you don't.

How Does Your Life Compare?

Your Celebrity Boob Twin:

Charlize Theron

Who's Your Celebrity Boob Twin?

Guys Like That You're Charming

You're the girl most guys can't get out of their heads Even if they met you on a bad hair day :-) You just seem to "click" with everyone you meet So even if a guy forgets about you for a second... his friends haven't!

What Do Guys Like About You?

You Belong in London

A little old fashioned, and a little modern. A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock. A unique soul like you needs a city that offers everything. No wonder you and London will get along so well.

What City Do You Belong In?

Your Famous Movie Kiss is from Romeo + Juliet

"Has my heart loved 'till now? Forswear it, sight! For I never saw a true beauty 'till this night."

What Famous Movie Kiss Are You?

You Are a Pinky

You are fiercely independent, and possibly downright weird. A great communicator, you can get along with almost anyone. You are kind and sympathetic. You support all your friends - and love them for who they are. You get along well with: The Ring Finger Stay away from: The Thumb

What Finger Are You?

Your Travel Personality Is: The Sophisticate

You're well educated and cultured, and the places you travel to reflect that. You appreciate the best art, food, architecture, and local flavor. A true traveler, you are destined to be multi-lingual and very worldly.

What's Your Travel Personality?

You Are Basic Panties

You are a laid back chick with a real natural beauty. You can make unwashed hair and minimal make-up super sexy. Men tend to notice you show the "real you" - and they appreciate it. And while basic makes boring for some, it looks classic on you.

What Kind of Panties Are You?

The March 4 Bulacan Dog Show

Well, it was a pretty tiring day for us. (Bert and I). We went to Bulacan for a dog show and we were there pretty early because they said that the show was going to start at exactly 12:00pm. As it turned out, it started at around 3pm. I was trying my best not to get pissed off at that time so as not to irk my mom and my dad.

I honestly thought that the dog show went pretty well:
1.) Chiro won.
- He finished first in his category. He may have not won Best in Show but I think winning in his category is a pretty big achievement already.
2.) Max won Best In Show
- Although Max isn't our dog, we bred him and we should really be happy that he won Best In Show. It just goes to prove that we breed lovely dogs.

I think the problem with my mom (well, my parents) is that they can't accept defeat even if we are kind of a part of that victory as well. I'm saying this because she always wants to be the best. I mean, yeah, who doesn't want to be the best at ALL TIMES, right? I'm sure we all do. But MOST OF THE TIME, we CAN'T BE THE BEST ALL THE TIME. Sometimes, we have to step down from where we are and give the kudos and victory to someone else. In fact, I think, the saying: "There is victory in defeat" is super applicable here. Why? Since Max is our breeding it goes to show that even if our dogs aren't really that enormous or great using the standards of other people, at least we breed really good looking dogs right? I guess I just find it odd.

She also got mad at me because I wasn't talking to anyone else there. Duh? What does she want me to do? Pretend that I'm a politician and go around the whole freaking court and shake the hands of each and every person there? I'm sure she won't even do that then why is she expecting that of me?

If there's one thing that I want my mom to realize, I wish she would realize that I'm NOT my sister. I can't do those things that my sister does. Yes, that's my weakness and somehow, I don't want to work on that (I know this may sound awful since I don't want to work on something I know I'm not good at). But then again, don't you ever get the feeling that you don't want to stress yourself out at something you know that you will never be or will ever be? That's the feeling that I get.

I just wish that one day she would realize that the world isn't about dogs. It's not about her and what she wants. It's about each and everyone else's dreams and aspirations. Don't get me wrong. I'm not condemning the dogs. It's just that sometimes, I feel that they are holding me back from being what I can be. From being what I want to be. Yes, I do like dogs. I love them but I think we just have a lot and soo much stress is being put on taking care of them that sometimes, I feel like we're losing our touch with the world. With what's happening and with what's really important.

Yeah, someday, when I get to leave the house, I wouldn't mind having one dog. But I'm really not going to be THAT into it. Like be affected at what other people are saying. I wouldn't even dream of breeding the dog and hoping to get money out of it. NOPE. I'm just going to love him/her. Try to give them the best that I can have but definitely not at my expense.

And, I would value what's really important in my life. My family, my work. Everything that made me - ME.

Here are the pics from the dog show:

I take on my life

Stressful, stressful Friday Morning

I wasn't able to do DTR since there was a critical ticket for Asia AP that was opened. Such a hassle because at that time there were still no people in Asia AP that was here. Luthfi was in training, Jef was going to the LTO, Cathy is on VL and I didn't know and by some weird coincidence, Choy left his cellphone at home. GRRREAT! don't you think so? I have already escalated this to Martin and I think he was pretty pissed about it as well. Haaay.

Anyway, let's talk about some other thing.

Let's talk about the book that I read in Davao. "Shopaholic Takes Manhattan." Hmm... I know it seems like a pretty shallow book since I know, I'm old already - well, compared to other people but I just have this unbreakable bond with the light and comic books. It takes my mind off things and reality and how heavy life is.

Somehow, I do wish that I would be someone like that person in the book. Yeah, she's in debt. So what, I am too. And I think that there will always be a point in your life that you will be in debt. Especially with things getting crazy here in the Philippines, it's impossible for you not to be in debt.

I guess my point is, I wasnt to be the kind of person who will just think about how to reorganize things (ok, I admit, I'm a pretty messy person). In my defense, yes, I am messy but magically, I know where everything is. I know where my stuff is especially when I need it the most. That's probably one of the reasons why sometimes I dislike it when my mom tells me to clean up my room or when she asks the maid to clean up my room because I lose my things more. I wouldn't know where they put my stuff now, would I?

I just want to worry about shopping. About what to wear the following day. Where to buy it. How I will pay for it. I want to think of those petty stuff because life as it is hard already so why think about it more, right? :)

Much like her, I think we all go through a disaster. Sometimes we feel like the whole world is crumbling down around us. We don't do very well in our careers or even in our personal life - much like how I felt earlier this week. Sometimes, I feel we always have to occassionally step back since we get soo cramped up and we don't get to see the whole picture.

It's something really similar to stress. We need a breather. A breather in life. Once in awhile just let go of everything and see the whole picture. More often than not I believe that we are happy - generally. But we just feel soo unhappy because we are zoning in on our problems and that makes us feel unfulfilled and unhappy.

I have to admit something: sometimes, I do feel this way. Especially with everything that I have to deal with: Parents, Bert, Dogs, Work. EVERYTHING. Sometimes, I feel like I'm just going to break down and cry - which I do admit I do occassionally. Not because I feel sad. Well, yeah maybe but more because it is cathartic to me and I feel better after a good cry. WEIRD! :) But true.

So there, right now, I'm stressed. The person I'm going to hand over to isn't here yet. I'm tired. I was here at 6:30 am. I've done everything taht I have to do today and if I base it on that, I can go home already but I can't. I want to step out into the world and go to the mall. Shop even if I don't have money. I have my card anyway. Just basically, make myself happy cause I'd have to live with myself and I don't want an unhappy me. :)

All I need is a bitter song

I feel bad today. Yup, that's right. Aside from that fact that I am DM today meaning I had to get up at 5 am. And be at the office at 7 am (well, actually, I was already in the office by 6:25). I have this terrible backache because of *I think* a wrong move that I made this morning. And oh, to enhance the mood... I'm listening to "All by mself" by Celine Dion. (That's soo cheesy...) But well, yeah I do feel bad.

Not that I feel alone in this world. Well, I've got a lot of friends around me. I know that there'll always be someone I can talk to no matter how busy we can get.

But then it's still different. The comfort that you get from a friend is different from the comfort that you can get from let's say your parents or your boyfriend.

As always, my parents and I are still not A-okay. We're okay. I'm trying to avoid the little bickerings that they hear. Sometimes when it's really bad, I literally bite my lip to keep me from saying something stupid or from answering back. But yeah, sometimes, well, most of the times, I can't take it anymore. It's just getting too much to handle.

There are options that I consider to solve this problem:1.) I can try to move out of my role into ADSI and hope that I get to be assigned to a project that would require me to temporarily stay abroad so that I can avoid my mom's menopause stage and the same thing that my dad is undergoing.2.) I can just apply for another job or another company that would require me to go abroad. But more often that not, if I take this option, this might be permanent already.3.) I can just succumb to what they want ALL the time.

First of all, I really want to go into ADSI. MOST of my friends are in ADSI, why wouldn't I be happy there? They were able to hack it there. Why would I not be able to, right? But the thing is, I'm also happy here. I don't want to compare how I was in AMG and how I will be in ADSI if ever. But that is definitely an option. I want to see the world. To live the world. To breathe the world.

Trave was never a very important part of my life before but now when my mind is slowly opening to it, I kind of like the idea of travel but as always, it would be be better if I was with someone.

Secondly, I don't want to apply to another company. I'm happy with HP. I'm comfortable already. Well, maybe not as comfortable as I was in YEHEY! cause I'm always on the go now. Always on my toes. Always up and about and continuously thinking about work. I don't know... I can't determine if that's good or what. Probably, it has it's good points and bad points.

Good Point: I won't get dumb because I'm constantly thinking about things.

Bad Point: I get really tired since even if I'm not physically doing anything it seems that I'm still working cause my mind is working double time, triple time, you name it...

Also, if I do apply for a job abroad that would be something for good already thus, I'd want to be with someone. As cheesy as it sounds, of course, I'd want Bert to be there wih me.

Thirdly, I don't want to succomb to everything that they want. That would be too taxing on me.

I'm also sad because I think I don't make Bert happy anymore. I know that because of the situation with my parents, I haven't really been focusing on our relationship. Actually, its more of, they really dont want me to make this relationship my focus. Heck, if I had a different set of parents, I'm sure this relationship would be the center of my world. Knowing me, I know what I can do. What I know I should do is an entirely different thing.

I also feel bad knowing that he's not THAT happy as I thought he was at work. It all slapped me in the face that yeah, I did help him to get here and encouraged him to get here but then maybe I shouldn't have done that. Maybe I should have just let him be but I was too pressured that time. That was one of the worst times in my life. That I have to admit. I hated those days. I hated the fact that my parents were putting him down when I know he didn't deserve any of those.

I guess I just hope that he would be able to find something that he wants to do. If he's not truly happy here.

I get it also about the weekend things. And I'm sorry that it seems that I dont prioritize him that much. I guess i'm just not showy about the things that I do for us. Or the things that I do to make us stay together or the sacrifices that I make. Maybe, I don't do much on my end as well but I'm trying my best to prioritize him. I guess it's just not enough. Or maybe, just maybe, I don't know what a relationship really entails.

It's been such a long time!!

It's been such a long time since I last blogged. Well, obviously, I'm back from Davao. I can't really say that I enjoyed my stay there. It was however really relaxing. I'm happy that we took PAL, the terminal was really nice. We had coffee before leaving since we were there a bit early.











When we got to Davao, the first place that we went to was Luz Kinilaw. It was recommended by the Marketing Head of Chowking. Obviously, I wasn't too pleased with the place. I know it may sound a bit off but I'm really not the adventurous type. I would have preferred going to the mall or going to the resto. I would've been happy staying in the room and ordering room service. But it's okay. It was quite an experience though.










The hotel room was pretty cool. We were located at the fourth floor which makes it really easy for me to go the fitness center where I had my massage. My much needed massage. Funny thing was, from our hotel window, you could really see Ateneo de Davao. It's just a really weird area to have a school and a hotel. The surrounding establishments weren't really that pretty. It's not like where Shangri-La is or any other hotel is here in Manila. Just walk a little and you'll be in the mall. Unfortunately, there was no mall nearby.

I guess, the whole point of going to this convention was to receive the award. The award which I really don't think much of. Maybe because I'm really not into the whole family business. All I was thinking of was my rest time. The fact that I want to sleep. That I want to get away from everything that was bothering - work, something else taht I really don't want to mention here. Well, I got away from the first one. I was not using the internet for 3 days! COOOL! But the other thing, well, I can't really get away from that but at least it was sort of a pseudo-break.



I guess the only happy think about my trip was the fact that I was able to meet some people who are also franchisees. People who were my age and one of them was also from UAP. At least next year, if it's not going to be in Hong Kong, I'll always have some people I can talk to and keep my mind off the boringness of some stuff.



Well, that was pretty much how my Davao Trip went. I still have more things to tell you. Like, how that trip led me to finish a book that I think I can quite relate to even if it's shallow. The Dog Show Trip to Bulacan and our IT March Dinner. Til Next Time! :D