Well, it is one of the rare times when I'm able to do yoga and watch smallville. I'm really thankful for it. Quite a break from the usual world that I live in. This kind of reminds me of my college days. When I was soo updated with all of the series of that time. Now, it's like I can't even cope with work and then series!
Maybe it has something to do with being involved with someone. Sometimes, you tend to just lose yourself in the relationship. Or maybe, it could also be being too involved with work? You also tend to lose yourself in work.
Anyway, watching Smallville again makes me think about death. I know how morbid but then the idea crossed my mind. Who will be the first person who will come and get me. I really do hope it would be my grandmother. If there was one person who would understand me and take care of me and give me soo much love and joy. I think it would be her.
If I compare the intensity of love that other people give me, I think she is one of those people who loved me the most. Actually, if she were still alive right now, I bet she would be one of those people who will be truly happy and proud of me. Of where I am right now.
Not that the people around me aren't proud of where I am now. Maybe, they just don't realize how important I am to them. But I guess, sooner or later, they will realize that. Not that I'm going to die soon or anything but there will come a time when I wouldn't be around for them all the time anymore. I think and I believe that the time has come for me to be around for myself for once and for all. As selfish as it sounds... Actually, it doesn't sound like me at all.
I have been the one who can constantly been giving in to all their wants. I just wonder, when will the time come when they will think about me too. They always say they do but they don't realize how selfish they are.
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