My Love Life

Okay fine, I have to admit that my love life isn't all the happy and fun. Well it is. But it's not always a fairytale and reality will let you know that rarely will it be a fairytale. However, you'd want it to be as close to what you dreamt of, right? Same with me. I still want to have all that. The knight in shining armor who will come to rescue me - the damsel in distress (but knowing me, you'd think... I'm not the typical helpless girl.) I was trained and learned how to take care of myself. But still, there are some things that I depend on other people for.

Lately, since Kat got married and all, the topic of marriage came up. Even amongst us... "young people". Except that obviously we're not that young anymore. We're slowly and surely becoming of age already and I believe that yeah, I guess it is time to think of marriage (as horrible as it may sound for us all). I know that the pressure will be more on the boys bot obviously, there will also be pressure on us (the girl's part).

The only painful think about all of these talks I guess is when you do realize that the person you are with is not on the same page as you right? Blame it on the "fact" that girls mature faster than boys but still. We're almost the same age right? And I guess for us girls, we just wnat to think of it. And we want to be sure if the person we are with right now is sure. Sure about our relationship. Sure that they want to be with us. And sure that even if it's scary and even if some people will say that it's too early to think about these things, they will think with us and more or less plan for the future.

If you ask me right now, yes, I'm ready to think about it and I'm ready to start planning. I know of a guy who's doing everything he can to save up money for the future (take note: he doesn't even have a steady girlfriend right now). I guess guys are different from each other and it's unfair to compare. But sometimes, you just can't help especially if you want something.

Honestly, I don't know where I'm going and I dont know how this will end. All I'm hoping for is that I sort out things so that to me, things are crystal clear. For me to have an idea of what my next action steps will be.