Bert and His Friends

Bert and I had dinner with his friends a couple of weeks ago. It was fun. It was probably just the second time that I"ve been with them. One of many reasons actually. One of which is that I feel soo intimidated by them. I don't know why but I guess I feel like they're going to judge me since they don't know me. They don't know who I was and who I am. And I guess if I don't open up to them, they will never get to know me as well. That's why little by little I want to get to know them and be friends with them cause I want to face my fear and most probably... it's just my imagination that's running wild.

Before, I never had any problems with getting along with people but lately I don't know. I guess I lost confidence in myself and how I relate to other people. OR, it could also be that I'm growing up and I don't really care if I please everyone. OR, it could be that I still would want to please people but I don't want to exert that much effort. Oh, what the hell, right? :)

I mean good thing is, I had a pretty good time and I would have wanted to hang out more with them. Sayang though that Bert had a critical and I had to end the night soon. Well, looking forward to future dinners with them. :)